Happy thoughts posted from secret meetings in the basement of a hip hippie's brain. Buddhist, drummer, runner, music lover, open-minded, liberally-inclined, and happy are a few ways to describe me in a nutshell. I love to spend time with my girlfriend Erin, I enjoy being outdoors, and I like to have a fun time with friends.
Nobody to tell, nobody will read it on here either.
Well I messed up bad. Ruined the best thing that ever fricken happened to me. The most amazing girl. Best relationship possible. I went to college and for some stupid fucking reason thought it would be a good idea to break up with her. Dont even know where the idea came from. But I do know that if I would have thought for two seconds I would not have done it. Then I thought I could win her back without trying hard and that was as stupid as my first mistake. Well if I have any shot in the world at getting her back I am going to take it right now. I will not give up. I can’t make her love me again but I am going to try. And I wont stop. I have to do this. She deserves the best and I want to be special to her again. She makes me feel like the luckiest guy in the world. Just thinking about her makes me miss her so much. This girl is literally the most gorgeous person I have ever seen. Inside and out. I just hope that I didn’t ruin this permanently. Here goes nothing. Wish me luck.
Music
My two favorite bands are The National and Bon Iver. They have really touched my lifes, and if I could ever express to the bands that I really appreciate their music, I would. Their sounds have definitely enhanced my life over the past three or four years on a weekly to daily basis.
Check out the incredible hulk old man. Weird but funny nonetheless
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I love that song.
How lame am I?
I just spent the past 15 minutes focusing on learning how to inhale and exhale through both my mouth and nose at the same time. That’s how lame I am.
Yep
The rough times when my parents make me feel not good enough no matter how much I do.
The crappy times when you I even harder to not mess up, and do everything I can to be caring, and it backfires. In the end, I make more mistakes than ever.
The even crappier times when I feel too bad about it, apologize to the point of being annoying, and feel bad about it and can’t apologize for it because that’s making me sound worse about it all.
The shitty times when blogging about it will won’t do a damn thing to change anything.
The shittiest times when my usual answer of turning negative energy to humor or goofiness or just blowing it off fails to work.
I don’t have many nights when I feel shitty about myself.
This is one of them.
I want sleep.
And a hug.
Scratch that.
I just want a hug.
drop a number in my ask. i’ll put one in yours if you put one in mine ;)
doooo iiittt
I don’t think I’ll get any numbers seeing how I have only 20 followers but I’ll try
(Source: martinhayfield)
